August 26th

Well, I've had quite the day, and yet there is still some left of it to go.

Well, first I spent way too long on painting my nails. The first time I painted all my nails on my left hand purple on accident, I was too focused on applying the polish well and when I noticed I scraped the polish off with a toothpick and removed the rest of the polish with acetone.

After that I then applied what I wanted, purple with black on my left hand's nails. I also wanted to paint some simple designs with a toothpick, it was a truly tedious process. Tedious process that ultimately failed as I ended up ruining the base color of the polish with the toothpick. I tried moving on but after some warped eyes and soiled stars I just decided to start over. Scrape, acetone, redo.

My right hand's nails were supposed to mirror my left hand's pattern but with black and dark blue instead. Accidentally painted a nail black instead of blue but I just painted over it with its blue.

Later in the day I wondered about this YouTuber I used to watch with much enjoyment many years ago, so I searched up his old channel name which he had abandonded. To my surprised delight - he was back! Back! Just under a new moninker and brand. I was overjoyed to hear his voice and his pattern of speech. It was like seeing an old friend that you haven't spoken to in years. He had returned just last December so fortunely I hadn't missed out on too much since his return to YouTube. Back like he never even left. As much as I am overjoyed at his return I am even more joyed and relieved to see and hear his mental health as been better and his life just more enjoyable than before, the nostalgia I felt watching his latest videos made me smile ear-to-ear. I'm so glad he's back but more glad that he's okay and well. Welcome back, Zucchini King.

So usually every Monday my brother goes to therapy and I haven to get him ready and dressed before my dad gets home from work so that my dad can take my brother to his therapy as soon as he gets home so he's not late. I did all I was supposed to do. I emptied his (ostomy) bag, I changed his diaper, I cleaned his face, changed his clothes, and put on his shoes. My dad comes home, I'm washing dishes and stop to get my brother in the car, my dad takes him and leaves to his therapy, and all is good.

Or so it was supposed to be good. I get a phonecall from my dad and he's yelling at me through the phone asking why I hadn't changed my brother's shirt. I tell him I forgot and he justs goes off. Soon after he tells me to get a new shirt for my brother I go ahead and quickly hang up on him and skedaddle to my brother's room to grab the first long shirt that I see (long shirts so it covers my brother's ostomy bag). I was tempted to just leave the shirt on the grill next to the front door for my dad to get off the car, grab it, and change my brother's shirt himself but I ended up going out there and changing my brother's shirt instead.

So much yelling. My younger little brother has football practice at our school on Mondays too and I woke him up like 30 minutes before his practice starts so he can get ready and stuff, but of course, he is but a sleepy child easily distracted by brain rot YouTube videos. My dad came home like 20 minutes later and even though we still had time, my dad had become lucid. Screaming at me and my younger brother for him not being ready and him wondering, "what is wrong with your head," while I'm just there at the counter mixing up water and powdered sugar to make some icing for cupcakes I had been baking. My dad threatened to take away/stop me from taking my meds because he thinks they're somehow making me forgetful or someting. Motherfucker (literally), I have ADD and have been forgetting to refill my ADD meds due to my ADD. This old man acting like his threats are in good intentions - he knows they aren't. Old ahh mf acting like he doesn't get forgetful too. Times like these with him make me feel like I can only be grateful for one thing from him.

That even at his age he still has a head full of hair, so I wont be going bald when I get old (problably). Lol my dad was sitting next to me as I was typing shit about him lmao heart emoji.

Anyway, may seraphims bless your eyes or eye after reading all of them words, thank you for reading though.